Wow its been along time

The semester is half way over. I am still feeling a little overwhelmed with life right now. But no where as bad as I was. I realized that I can only do so much. So for some reason that has made me feel better. Just the other day I was thinking about my life and what I have seen that are miracles. I know that I have had alot of them in my life. First my sons, with each one I was told never to have more children. Second, I think the biggest one just happened about three years ago. I went back to church. Not only did I go back but I went with my heart and soul in the right place. I learned that the atonement applied to me. That Jesus died for me, unlike before where I thought it was for everyone else except me. I went back because even though I grew up in the church and I tried to forget, I couldn't. I went back because I came to a point where I wanted and needed peace and joy in my life. Through the gospel I have found that. I have been places that the devil would not even go and I lived. I have walked streets that no one has business on but I walked through them. I have been in houses where I have seen things that I can not forget but want to. I have things done to me and allowed things done that I wished never happened. I expose my family to a way of life that I wish I never did. Now I know that I am a better and stronger person because of that path. I would never choose it again ! i love my family, I have empathy for people walking that path, I am kinder because of that path, I know one person can change the world, I know Jesus is the ultimate example of that. He was one person and he changed a whole world. I know I can change the world I live in.